Back at one…

Days had passed, (as well as my birthday) and I’m back on the track again. It’s been a very “hassle-lacious” week that I have encountered in the history of my birthday’s week. It’s just that the GMA’s SONA didn’t fall on the day of my birthday (Awww), so it was suppose to be half-day. ^_^ Lots of sleepless nights, drowzy and sleepy classes, these made me so stressed out, i can hardly eat and enjoy my food. Nevertheless, I’ve learned a hell lot of lessons in my acads, as well as in life’s experiences. I have learned to budget money. (time is money, time is gold). Imagine being in a situation like me – a Student Assistant working at the UP Engg Lib at the same time, developing a database for a public catalog, studying academics, being an egroup owner and leader at my term project in one of my LIS majors, maintaining a very good grade, finishing a requirement because of stupid INC on a useless subject, sleeplessness, no love life (as if), and lastly, the feeling of loneliness. Well, I’ve observed that the presence of “college blocks” seem to be effective in solving the problem of loneliness, but sometimes, it’s much better to socialize with other people too…Or maybe, am just to busy to socialize with anyone because i am too occupied. But at least, being an SA would solve that issue for me. Anyway, I think i am gonna sleep for now and continue this post later.. ^_^

I’m different, I’m an “ethical Ragnaroker”…

Sometime ago I was hired by a software solutions company based in Ortigas, i was also given a workstation that has a “quite impressive” videocard. At that very day, a female officemate of mine who was sitting near me was whining that she cant play cant ragnarok because her computer only has this “so-so” video card installed on it. Her faggot, lanky, look-at-me-because-im-so-cool boyfriend came up to her and said “ok lang yan makakahanap tayo ng paraan diyan”. That was the last day i saw that video card that was suppose to be mine. The next day i went back to work and was both furious and surprised that someone has changed my video card into a pathetic one, also that morning I saw this female officemate and her faggot BF were playing ragnarok and giving me a few glances, and sometimes breaks into laughter and saying “akong bahala diyan pag nagreklamo yan”. “Naknamputa…” I felt like grabbing a bottle of coke and cracking their skulls using it… Pero wag na, kawawa naman yung bote…

So time went by and the little by little the office was plunged into this ragnarok madness that people started to stay overnight and sign OT sheets and say that they have to rush something, but all along they were just playing ragnarok till dawn. Also, these people talk nothing but ragnarok all the time, at office hours, at lunch break, at “gimiks”, “alang pinipiniling oras”. They also acquired this “ragna-bot” thingie which has a simple interface and this software automatically “creeps” and “loots” for them, or simply “plays” for them which is obviously illegal. These people, including a few who were high in the office hierarchy, were also the ones who come to the office 3-4 hours late and strut in the office like some Capt. Jack Sparrow and get nosy on other people’s work. They are also the same people who crash into the middle of other department’s/project’s meetings and start talking bullshit as if they have known what was the group’s topic before they barged in.

Scores and scores of people are also playing in our local internet cafe… “Sa tinatambayan ko…” I was totally pissed when some of the computers where i used to play LAN games were converted into dedicated “RAGNAROK RIGS”. Tonight, I sat on one of the rigs and started to download a few mp3s, i went out for a while and bought a bottle of cola, when i came back i was confronted by the INet cafe’s patron because some players were lagging and one ragnarok player told that the kazaa opened in my computer was the reason for the lag. “BAWAL DAW MAGDOWNLOAD”. EH MGA PUTANGINA PALA NILA EH, kaya nga internet cafe yun eh dahil pwede kang magdownload, surf, and play games dun, hindi naman nakalagay dun na “RAGNAROK CAFE” yun.

Some players of this game are just past 10 years old, some younger, funny that they stay at wee hours just to play this damn game and pay P150 for their 10 hours of playing time… Saan nakukuha ang isang 10 year old na bata ang kanyang P150 araw-araw panlaro ng ragnarok? Paano nakakapasok itong batang ito kung puyat siya lagi kaka-ragnarok? I have even witnessed a brawl happened in that cafe when a guild member “looted” an item from a fellow guild member. Andun sila nagbabasagan ng mukha dahil lang sa isang item sa isang mindless na online game. Also, some of the players were still undergraduates and were obviously cutting their classes “para lang makapagpalevel-up at makakuha ng items.” A friend of mine even furiously stormed Level-up’s main office because his account was “hacked” and his level 70+ archmage’s million zennies worth of items were stolen, including his precious “bone wand”, and demanded that his items be restored. I also know someone who was dead serious in trading his Nokia 5110i in real life to someone just to get this +1 zillion uber-elite-super-socketed-armor. Damn! I have never even thought such a game could make people do such things… Ooops! Forgot the word “pathetic”, it should have been “I have never even thought such a game could make people do such PATHETIC things…”

So you ask, paano ko nalaman ang mga bagay na ito? Siguro sinasabi niyo na “E gago ka pala eh naglalaro ka rin siguro niyan!”. Sorry na lang mga tol, but im not a hypocrite who preaches that he hates something which he himself is addictively doing. E sa araw2 ba naman na marinig ko yan imposible naman na i-block ko yung mga conversations ng mga tao from my ears as they talk about this ragnarok bullcrap. So what am i trying to say here? Im saying that this ragnarok thingie, little by little, is ruining lives, real people’s lives and not some imaginary character made up of 1’s and 0’s.

And who knows? It may be your life…

—-based on someone’s Friendster Bulletin Board ^_^

……hmm.. parang may kakilala ako a… ROFLMAO ^_^

h4×0r’s manifesto

“Yes, I am a criminal. My crime is that of curiosity. My crime is that of judging people by what they say and think, not what they look like. My crime is that of outsmarting you, something that you will never forgive me for. I am a hacker, and this is my manifesto. You may stop me, but you can’t stop us all.”

These are the very words that get stuck in my mind after watching the movie, ‘Hackers’. It was indeed informative,educational and ethical as well. Here’s a link to the movie. Some of the great movies that I’ve watched were Swordfish, PayCheck, and The Recruit – all of these in just a week of tiresome work.

These are the thoughts and/or imaginations that inspired me to do well at my work as an SA, handling out databases, looking for flaws and to get every program to work out well. Phew! For the meantime, I need enormous amounts of sleep…

Terrified, Mortified, Petrified, Stupefied by….

Yeeha! Hindi ako makapaniwala sa takbo ng mga pangyayari sa mga nakalipas na linggo…pano ba naman kasi, tanggap na ako as SA sa Engg Lib! Ni hindi ko naman inaasahan na ganun kabilis yun.. hehe… isa pa..dagdag na responsibilidad at pagsubok yun. Parang magiging tagapag-encode pa ata ako ng database, at malamang ang ibig sabihin nun ay parang mag-aaral ako magdatabase, java, networking, troubleshooting at kung anuano pang teknikal na kailangan malaman sa aking pagtatrabahuhan. Siguro parang mag-aaral na rin ako ng comsci na basics sa aking papasukan. Hindi ko akalain andami na pala ng aking mga kailangang gawin..isipin mo ba naman kasi next week, magkakaroon ng map test sa Asya, at kakaiba ito sa aking naranasan sa UP Manila, MAS MAHIRAP! Paano ba naman kasi, sisiw lang naman daw yung bansa/kapital at kung anuano pa, kaya ang pinapakuha niya ay iba’t ibang klaseng mapa at mga importanteng mga kung anuanong lugar pa. Tapos, hindi bat parang anmalas ko naman dahil lagi akong Group I sa mga LIS subjects ko? pero sa aking palagay, tama lang yun para naman maranasan ko ang tunay na kahirapan… at tiyak akong makabubuti ito sa akin bagamat parang hindi ito makakayanan ng aking katawan. Marami na tuloy akong plano sa aking sarili.. hindi ko lang mailalahad sa ngayon dahil marami pa akong kailangang gawin.. Kakain muna ako ng pizza, at matutulog nang mahimbing. ^_^

The Wedding

Phew!…I can still smell the scent of love in the air and I dunno why. Maybe it’s just the effect of the songs played ‘coz it’s somehow similar to my playlist at home! But of course, the songs did their purpose. Am I in love? ‘coz at those moments, I dreamt of seeing myself being married otherwise, to be a priest. The wedding at Fernwood at Tandang Sora was fantastic, but somehow I just didn’t like the venue ‘coz it was very hot..sometime at 3 pm, I thought I was gonna evaporate ‘coz am sweatin so much due to the weight of the camera I was holding and using it as the ceremony begins. The church was like a greenhouse, waters splashing at stairs and the altar’s design was great. There was crowding at some spots in which I have a hard time of taking a shot ‘coz of my height as handicap but still, it really didn’t matter to me. Besides, I did my best to take ‘Canon moments’. And at last, the pictures were compiled in a movie clip downloadable somewhere at my brother’s account. I was really lightning-strucked by the songs of Gary V just like his “How Did You Know” which is a revival maybe for the last decade. I just couldn’t believe that the playlist of love songs where similar to my current list at iTunes. Well, here’s a lyrics of the song that touched my heart badly ^_^

From the album “Gary Valenciano: How Did You Know”

I remember so well
The day that you came
Into my life
You asked for my name
You have the most beautiful smile

My life started to change
I wake up each day feeling all right
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things
Will work out just fine

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there was an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life
I never forget how you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I’m really trying to say
It’s not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there was an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life
I never forget how you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I’m really trying to say
It’s not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you…

…a really good song indeed, with good lyrics.

Maybe I’m just gonna wish that my wedding will be somehow as magical as Paul and Geraldine’s wedding. And those moments especially the songs…I would never ever forget those precious moments I’ve had in my life.